Patapon

I used to be tagged as the "Assitant Coach" of the Frisbee Team in Xavier, but lately, I have been so patapon. Now, the legit coach, who is my friend and colleague is sort of mad at me. But I can't blame him. I have been MIA for almost two weeks even while a league which I am participating is ongoing.

But, I have my reasons. I wasn't MIA for nothing. Yun nga lang, hindi nya pa alam yung mga reasons na 'to. Kaya naman, hindi pa rin ako nakakapag-sorry sa kanya, and I am not sure if explaining to him would make him feel less bad about what I did and about me being patapon, thus being my friend again. 

Now, the reasons.

1. Medyo magastos maglaro ng Frisbee, and for the last months, palagi akong short. Not really short, more of having just enough money to be able to live for the day. Well that's in my own point of view. Sorry na, mahirap lang.

When  you commit kasi to pay for a league, you have to attend training eh. Nagkataon na for this league, we have to train at night so other players who are college students could train too. But, we have to train somewhere else dahil walang ilaw sa field ng Xavier. But, training somewhere else means we have to pay.

 After training naman the team usually goes eat out. Of course, we're tired and hungry from all night of running. I love going out with the team, but then again, I can't afford it right now. Yes, I am not forced to go out with them, but saying "no" is such a hard thing for me.

2. Ate Tina and Mario (and Glenn din), my closest friends in Xavier will be leaving. Ate Tina decided to go find a new career in another place. Mario on the other hand is in Japan living his dream. Glenn is not really leaving, pero parang aalis na rin since he's going to be a "boss" in the Grade School. I will miss them, and I actually am missing them right now.

Since malapit na nga sila umalis, I wanted to spend more time with them, bond with them more since magiging madalang na ang pagkikita namin, esp Mario who will be miles away. For the past weeks na anging MIA ako sa mga trainings, I opted to go to the gym with Glenn and Mario, play tennis with them or go somewhere else with them. I really wanted to maximize the remaining time we have together. :)

3. Xavier Ultimate is one of the best teams in the Philippines, and I am very proud to say that. Being one of the best team we are, we have to be very competitive in every league or tournament we join. But right now, I can't afford to be competitive.

Day 1 ng New Year's League, late ako sa call time kahit na nagtaxi na ako. Buti na lang, naabutan ko ang isang car na paalis na. Kung nalate ako ng mga 5 seconds, hindi na ako umabot. Sayang pamasahe. I think that was the first reason why Mendy got mad at me, and yes, I admit that it was my mistake.

So we were at the event. We had two games for the day, against yet another two of the best teams in the country. We can't afford to lose, so we had to put our best foot forward. Kailangang ipasok ang mga pinakamagagagaling na players, and so we did. Unfortunately, hindi ako isa sa mga pinakamagagaling na players, alam ko yun. Marami pa akong kakaining bigas. And I totally understand if I was not able to play for that day. But then, it made me realize. I feel like I can be more productive if I do something else instead of going to a game where I will not be able to play. Less gastos pa. So, that started my being patapon.


I know and I am sure, you have your rebuttals for my reasons. But all these reasons together are not made just to make reasons and to reason out. These reasons made me think, and helped me do the actions I did. Might now be right to everyone, but for my situation, I think it's the best I can do.