Recalling my high school and grade school days, I cant remember any moment when I appealed or questioned the grade my teachers gave me. I trusted them. We trusted them. We respect them, and so do the grades they give us. It never crossed our minds to ask why we were given such grade. We accept what was given to us, and we try to make it better.
Here in the institution where I am working, it is an entirely different scenario. Questioning their teacher is very very common, especially questioning the grade they give the students. And where do these questions come from? THE PARENTS, not the students.
Until now, I still don't understand how and where the school got the idea of letting their students appeal for their grade. I mean, we teachers, we think about the grade we give our students, we make sure that before we give them, we have studied very well those grades we will be distributing. Questioning the grade given by the teacher is like questioning the teacher's credibility. Any way you look at it, it still would look the same way. OUR CREDIBILITY IS BEING QUESTIONED, and that hurts. Sometimes, even us, we doubt ourselves.
Monday, 21 January 2013
Monday, 16 April 2012
Random Monday
Since I cannot think of any important topic to blog about, lemme just share to you how uninteresting this Monday was.
The night before, I slept really late. I tried to sleep early, but it was such a failure coz I had siesta in the afternoon. So I was browsing the net until I think 3am, but my alarm was set to 8am.
Guess what? I woke up a few minutes before 9 am. GAWD. I'm gonna be late for my tutor. I needed to wake up at 8 am coz I need one hour allowance for preparation then 1 hour for travel since my tutor gig is at 10am. And I was late. Not very late though. The Atienza's were still very nice to welcome me with big smiles.
So taught Nikki first. Ibong Adarna. Sisiw. She was kinda uninterested today but she tried not to show it to me. But, I think we're getting along pretty well since she is now sharing some things about me, and she's not that shy anymore. We kind of joked around already, which was a milestone.
After Nikki was Deric. Such a nice boy. I taught him how to write effective introduction for essays, in Filipino. He was having a hard time with grammar still, which is a very common problem to Xaverians, but I think he's learning the strategies I am teaching him.
After tutor, went to Xavier to have some work out. I think this was one of the best work outs I had. I was sooo tired but I felt like my muscles are really growing. Fats aren't going away yet, though. I saw Chris and Justin Chong at the gym. Weird! I thought Justin was kind of irritated at me coz I was so maarte during their class dinner because I didn't want to come coz I was shy. Apparently, he was not. Over-thinking again. I also taught Justin how to do the workout. I taught him my way which I am not yet sure if it's effective or not. Owell, at least I looked like I am an expert. Hahahaha.
Went to shower after workout. Its already in my plan for today to go to a Globe Business Center to apply for a cellphone line. So I went to SM Hypermart first to have some requirements photocopied so it'll be complete when I get there.
Rode an FX going to Kalayaan then rode a jeep going to Market-Market. I went directly to the Globe Center, but luckily, I saw this new milk tea store which sells Taro Milk Tea! At last! After weeks of craving! So I bought one. But the taste was different, and the color was it's usual violet-ish color. But that was okay to satisfy my craving.
When I was at Globe already, I approached one of the clerks there. She told me what to do and assisted me. I gave her my requirements then she went back to me after a couple of minutes. She verified my requirements then told me that it'll take them 3-5 days for the verification of the application. I will be receiving a text or call from them if my application is approved. Argh. I was kinda disappointed. I thought instead of writing this non-sense blog, I will be fixing my contacts in my new BB phone. Grrr. But owell, can't do anything about that. Have to wait na lang I guess.
Then, I went home. Check Facebook and Twitter for a while. My mother then calls me to have dinner. They already ate so I ate alone. Then my brother who works in a bank arrived, so we ate together. Had some good laughs while eating.
I started this blog while waiting for PBB on the TV. Now, I am finishing this. I really don't know how to end this non-sense blog, so ganito na lang bigla na lang mawawala.
The night before, I slept really late. I tried to sleep early, but it was such a failure coz I had siesta in the afternoon. So I was browsing the net until I think 3am, but my alarm was set to 8am.
Guess what? I woke up a few minutes before 9 am. GAWD. I'm gonna be late for my tutor. I needed to wake up at 8 am coz I need one hour allowance for preparation then 1 hour for travel since my tutor gig is at 10am. And I was late. Not very late though. The Atienza's were still very nice to welcome me with big smiles.
So taught Nikki first. Ibong Adarna. Sisiw. She was kinda uninterested today but she tried not to show it to me. But, I think we're getting along pretty well since she is now sharing some things about me, and she's not that shy anymore. We kind of joked around already, which was a milestone.
After Nikki was Deric. Such a nice boy. I taught him how to write effective introduction for essays, in Filipino. He was having a hard time with grammar still, which is a very common problem to Xaverians, but I think he's learning the strategies I am teaching him.
After tutor, went to Xavier to have some work out. I think this was one of the best work outs I had. I was sooo tired but I felt like my muscles are really growing. Fats aren't going away yet, though. I saw Chris and Justin Chong at the gym. Weird! I thought Justin was kind of irritated at me coz I was so maarte during their class dinner because I didn't want to come coz I was shy. Apparently, he was not. Over-thinking again. I also taught Justin how to do the workout. I taught him my way which I am not yet sure if it's effective or not. Owell, at least I looked like I am an expert. Hahahaha.
Went to shower after workout. Its already in my plan for today to go to a Globe Business Center to apply for a cellphone line. So I went to SM Hypermart first to have some requirements photocopied so it'll be complete when I get there.
Rode an FX going to Kalayaan then rode a jeep going to Market-Market. I went directly to the Globe Center, but luckily, I saw this new milk tea store which sells Taro Milk Tea! At last! After weeks of craving! So I bought one. But the taste was different, and the color was it's usual violet-ish color. But that was okay to satisfy my craving.
When I was at Globe already, I approached one of the clerks there. She told me what to do and assisted me. I gave her my requirements then she went back to me after a couple of minutes. She verified my requirements then told me that it'll take them 3-5 days for the verification of the application. I will be receiving a text or call from them if my application is approved. Argh. I was kinda disappointed. I thought instead of writing this non-sense blog, I will be fixing my contacts in my new BB phone. Grrr. But owell, can't do anything about that. Have to wait na lang I guess.
Then, I went home. Check Facebook and Twitter for a while. My mother then calls me to have dinner. They already ate so I ate alone. Then my brother who works in a bank arrived, so we ate together. Had some good laughs while eating.
I started this blog while waiting for PBB on the TV. Now, I am finishing this. I really don't know how to end this non-sense blog, so ganito na lang bigla na lang mawawala.
Saturday, 14 April 2012
I miss I miss I miss.
I was again, wandering off to sleep, scrolling Facebook up and down when this picture of a former student came out of nowhere. MY FORMER STUDEEEENTS! My first ever set of students while I was still doing my practicum! And they are all grown up now. How time flies so fast.
Because of that picture where all of them look so different and not anymore babies, I browsed all my albums again, then I saw my album of their pictures, MY FAVORITE GRADE 4 CLASS.
Being the Special Education major that I am, I had my practicum in a SpEd School, where inclusion is one of their programs. Inclusion means all the students are included in the regular class regardless of his or her condition. But, the student (or their parents) can opt to get a shadow teacher who will help the kid with his needs that the classroom teacher cannot do such as his tantrums, or even in simply writing some stuffs that the student might not be able to do.
I had my practicum at Headway School For Giftedness, and from the name itself,Yes, it is a school for gifted students. But, if you are aware of the nature of gifted students, based on the things I learned in my SpEd classes, most of the kids with giftedness comes with another condition, It can be ADHD, Autism, or something else, and the story of the students in Headway is no different.
There were four practicumers that sem, Me, Ian, Citen and Mihan. We were assigned to four classes. I was assigned to grade 4. I was okay with that, but the other teacher warned me. Teaching the grade 4 class is a challenge.
So the practicum continues. I teach Social Studies since it is one of my concentration and the Coordinating teacher whom I was assigned was the Social Studies teacher from Grade 1 to Grade 6, and so was I.
I go around the school, teaching 6 different level same subject, different lessons though. But during breaks, I am with the class I am assigned to, the Grade 4 class. I easily realized why the teachers told me that teaching this class is a challenge. This is the class with the most number of students with conditions, behavioral conditions. Caren, a girl who acts like a boy and is very very very very very violent is already one of those that gives headache to the teachers. She lied a lot about me telling people rumors and she punched me a lot and poked me with a pencil. But it's okay, I totally understand. There were the wild and noisy and rowdy boys Myles, Joshua, Ram, Jester and Nico. There were few silent once (those who were bullied) like Ian, Camille, Chris, Migo. Then the girls, Poleen and Joy. The student who attends classes only MWF, Kim. But my most favorite of all, GABBY. The class was a mixture of everything. As in everything. When two kids start to fight, you will surely never going to finish your lesson without shouting and getting mad. I shouted a lot. But the moment I realized it was not effective to them, I tried to treat them like I am their friend, and so that became my technique.
But it was more than a classroom management technique, it grew more to me. I really did treat them like my friends, and I even called them my "bestfriends" in the album I took on the last day of practicum.
As I browse the pictures of Gabby, my favorite student, I can't help but feel sad and happy at the same time. They're all grown up now. Gabby who used to be so chubby is now so thin and looks like a teenager. I remember that chubby cheek guy who sits beside me during recess and lunch and eat beside me. I felt sad that I as not able to see how he grew up into that awesome looking teen now. I remember that cute little chubby boy who gave me a yellow ribbon metal necklace after me saying that his necklace is cute. (He gave me the same necklace as his after me telling him it was nice.)
A part of me wanted to go back to Headway again and visit that class. But 2 years had past, and they had graduated for sure. I will not be able to see them again together, and I am not quite sure if I am still the teacher Darryl they treated as best friend. Now that made me feel sad. I sooo want to see them again.
Nostalgic are the days when being close to students was not an issue. I call them my bestfriends. I can say who my favorite student is, and no eyebrows will raise. Unlike now, talk to a student outside the workroom, and that will be grounds for professional distance. Well, it's not that OA. It's an exaggeration of course. But some people in the school thinks that way. Call them your student your friend, and that's a big issue. I don't know why, really, I still don't know why. Because they are from prominent families in the country? Because they are rich people? I still don't understand.
Now I started to imagine, if I accepted the offer of the principal of the school where I had my practicum, would life be more simpler? Would it be easier? Would it be better? Again, I don't know.
Because of that picture where all of them look so different and not anymore babies, I browsed all my albums again, then I saw my album of their pictures, MY FAVORITE GRADE 4 CLASS.
Being the Special Education major that I am, I had my practicum in a SpEd School, where inclusion is one of their programs. Inclusion means all the students are included in the regular class regardless of his or her condition. But, the student (or their parents) can opt to get a shadow teacher who will help the kid with his needs that the classroom teacher cannot do such as his tantrums, or even in simply writing some stuffs that the student might not be able to do.
I had my practicum at Headway School For Giftedness, and from the name itself,Yes, it is a school for gifted students. But, if you are aware of the nature of gifted students, based on the things I learned in my SpEd classes, most of the kids with giftedness comes with another condition, It can be ADHD, Autism, or something else, and the story of the students in Headway is no different.
There were four practicumers that sem, Me, Ian, Citen and Mihan. We were assigned to four classes. I was assigned to grade 4. I was okay with that, but the other teacher warned me. Teaching the grade 4 class is a challenge.
So the practicum continues. I teach Social Studies since it is one of my concentration and the Coordinating teacher whom I was assigned was the Social Studies teacher from Grade 1 to Grade 6, and so was I.
I go around the school, teaching 6 different level same subject, different lessons though. But during breaks, I am with the class I am assigned to, the Grade 4 class. I easily realized why the teachers told me that teaching this class is a challenge. This is the class with the most number of students with conditions, behavioral conditions. Caren, a girl who acts like a boy and is very very very very very violent is already one of those that gives headache to the teachers. She lied a lot about me telling people rumors and she punched me a lot and poked me with a pencil. But it's okay, I totally understand. There were the wild and noisy and rowdy boys Myles, Joshua, Ram, Jester and Nico. There were few silent once (those who were bullied) like Ian, Camille, Chris, Migo. Then the girls, Poleen and Joy. The student who attends classes only MWF, Kim. But my most favorite of all, GABBY. The class was a mixture of everything. As in everything. When two kids start to fight, you will surely never going to finish your lesson without shouting and getting mad. I shouted a lot. But the moment I realized it was not effective to them, I tried to treat them like I am their friend, and so that became my technique.
But it was more than a classroom management technique, it grew more to me. I really did treat them like my friends, and I even called them my "bestfriends" in the album I took on the last day of practicum.
As I browse the pictures of Gabby, my favorite student, I can't help but feel sad and happy at the same time. They're all grown up now. Gabby who used to be so chubby is now so thin and looks like a teenager. I remember that chubby cheek guy who sits beside me during recess and lunch and eat beside me. I felt sad that I as not able to see how he grew up into that awesome looking teen now. I remember that cute little chubby boy who gave me a yellow ribbon metal necklace after me saying that his necklace is cute. (He gave me the same necklace as his after me telling him it was nice.)
A part of me wanted to go back to Headway again and visit that class. But 2 years had past, and they had graduated for sure. I will not be able to see them again together, and I am not quite sure if I am still the teacher Darryl they treated as best friend. Now that made me feel sad. I sooo want to see them again.
Nostalgic are the days when being close to students was not an issue. I call them my bestfriends. I can say who my favorite student is, and no eyebrows will raise. Unlike now, talk to a student outside the workroom, and that will be grounds for professional distance. Well, it's not that OA. It's an exaggeration of course. But some people in the school thinks that way. Call them your student your friend, and that's a big issue. I don't know why, really, I still don't know why. Because they are from prominent families in the country? Because they are rich people? I still don't understand.
Now I started to imagine, if I accepted the offer of the principal of the school where I had my practicum, would life be more simpler? Would it be easier? Would it be better? Again, I don't know.
Friday, 13 April 2012
A thousand bucks for a Friendship??? Hmmmm
Sunday's the first day of the Malakas Maganda Summer League. This Ultimate Frisbee League is different because it will be an all-girl team vs. an all girl team and all-men vs. all-men competitions, AND I DON'T LIKE IT.
The first time I joined Malakas Maganda League, I did not enjoy, instead, I felt like I wasted money. I didn't get to play much because the teams we were competing with were the best teams in the country, as in intense galing, so we have to be really competitive. I understand that we have to put inside the field the best players, and I have nothing against that. Just that, I felt like I can do something else if I didn't play.
Now my problem is, I didn't really express my intention to join this coming league, but I always go to training because I want to redeem Mendy's trust, and to show him I still love Frisbee, coz I really do. But I was shocked when I saw my name on the roster of the team.
First, I will not be able to play nor go to three out of the four weekend games because I will be somewhere, and this was set way before I knew the schedule of the games. Plus, I am saving money for my lakad this summer, so I really don't want to spend money just so I could still join even if I am not playing.
But the real problem is this. I do not know how to tell Mendy that I cannot play and I do not want to play for this league. I am sure if I tell him this, he will again get mad at me and his madness at me will worsen, and can trigger and end of friendship status for the two of us.
Is the one thousand bucks worth it? I DO NOT KNOW.
The first time I joined Malakas Maganda League, I did not enjoy, instead, I felt like I wasted money. I didn't get to play much because the teams we were competing with were the best teams in the country, as in intense galing, so we have to be really competitive. I understand that we have to put inside the field the best players, and I have nothing against that. Just that, I felt like I can do something else if I didn't play.
Now my problem is, I didn't really express my intention to join this coming league, but I always go to training because I want to redeem Mendy's trust, and to show him I still love Frisbee, coz I really do. But I was shocked when I saw my name on the roster of the team.
First, I will not be able to play nor go to three out of the four weekend games because I will be somewhere, and this was set way before I knew the schedule of the games. Plus, I am saving money for my lakad this summer, so I really don't want to spend money just so I could still join even if I am not playing.
But the real problem is this. I do not know how to tell Mendy that I cannot play and I do not want to play for this league. I am sure if I tell him this, he will again get mad at me and his madness at me will worsen, and can trigger and end of friendship status for the two of us.
Is the one thousand bucks worth it? I DO NOT KNOW.
Fanboy
I dunno what's with Pinoy Big Brother that it makes me such a fanboy. Everything that happens inside Big Brother's House, it affects me! And tonight, I once again realize how big of a fan I am of PBB.
This season features 14 young men and women from different walks of life. May mayaman, may mahirap, may simple lang ang buhay, but what Kuya never fails to bring inside the house are good looking people.
Actually, though I am such a fan, I don't get the chance to know each one of the housemates yet, but I already have some bet.
I like Myrtle, because I already knew her even before she entered the house. My student tweeted that he knows her and that they're kind of friends. Then I sorta stalked her and she's really pretty, though she was in costume in all of her pictures. But I can see she really is pretty. Hindi sya masyado pinakita sa episode kanina but I think she's really nice, and still pretty without the costume and the make-up.
I like Claire a little. She's really pretty, though she has a foreign blog. But she really is. And another thing, in tonights episode, she was bitched by this girl who was so loud, aggressive and bossy, which made me dislike her.
Now, Karen. She looks flirty for me, and she's not that pretty ha! Well, maybe some people find her personality admirable, but I just don't like girls who are very aggressive and too loud, parang wala kasing breeding eh.
It's too early to judge and to tell who's going to win, but I would always have a favorite every season.
This season features 14 young men and women from different walks of life. May mayaman, may mahirap, may simple lang ang buhay, but what Kuya never fails to bring inside the house are good looking people.
Actually, though I am such a fan, I don't get the chance to know each one of the housemates yet, but I already have some bet.
I like Myrtle, because I already knew her even before she entered the house. My student tweeted that he knows her and that they're kind of friends. Then I sorta stalked her and she's really pretty, though she was in costume in all of her pictures. But I can see she really is pretty. Hindi sya masyado pinakita sa episode kanina but I think she's really nice, and still pretty without the costume and the make-up.
I like Claire a little. She's really pretty, though she has a foreign blog. But she really is. And another thing, in tonights episode, she was bitched by this girl who was so loud, aggressive and bossy, which made me dislike her.
Now, Karen. She looks flirty for me, and she's not that pretty ha! Well, maybe some people find her personality admirable, but I just don't like girls who are very aggressive and too loud, parang wala kasing breeding eh.
It's too early to judge and to tell who's going to win, but I would always have a favorite every season.
Monday, 9 April 2012
Pushing Myself
Just a simple thought that has been bothering me: I am not sure if I should go to training today or not.
Last week, I went back to regular frisbee training. It was kinda awkward since Mendy is still kinda ignoring me. Wednesday was the last day of training. And just before I leave, Shanae, one of the players was with the bench along with Franco, another player.
Shanae was exploring Franco's BB phone when suddenly, she thought of tweet something using his account. Yah know, to joke around. Just to JOKE around. Franco tried to get it From Shanae but Shanae won't give it to him, instead, she passed it to me. I didn't give it to him as well, and also made a tweet. Then he started with his surprising tantrums. May ganun pala siyang ugali. He started not talking. Shanae was giving back his phone but he wont get it. He got mad, obviously.
I didn't want to leave Shanae with Franco being mad, but I had to leave, so I left while the rest of the team went out to eat.
SERIOUSLY???? Anong immature don??? We were just playing around, and we do that like all the time, and now he gets pissed off because of that simple joke? What I a mad about this is that, BAKIT AKO LANG? Ako lang talaga yung may kasalanan? I mean, I don't want him to get mad at Shanae but I just feel like it's so unfair. Feeling ko, bacause I am JUST like this, they can afford to get mad at me all the time. Like most of my friends. Gawan mo sila ng kaunting mali, madali silang magagalit sa'kin. And me, I always end up saying sorry as if I killed someone.
After seeing this tweet, I tried not to mind it. But late that night, I saw the yet another set of tweets. I am pretty sure that they were talking about me. Kilala ko sila. They like making jokes and putting hidden meaning to tweets like that. We do that eh. Siguro right now, naiinis ako kasi sa'kin nila yon ginagawa ngayon.
Now, I am still not sure if I should go to training. Well, I want to. I want to go to training because I want to gain Mendy's trust, but it'll be awkward knowing that after what happened, I know that they are on their side, because they were not able to hear my side. But I want to train, or maybe, I am just pushing myself. I don't know. But right now, this is what I feel. Again, what "I" feel,
Last week, I went back to regular frisbee training. It was kinda awkward since Mendy is still kinda ignoring me. Wednesday was the last day of training. And just before I leave, Shanae, one of the players was with the bench along with Franco, another player.
Shanae was exploring Franco's BB phone when suddenly, she thought of tweet something using his account. Yah know, to joke around. Just to JOKE around. Franco tried to get it From Shanae but Shanae won't give it to him, instead, she passed it to me. I didn't give it to him as well, and also made a tweet. Then he started with his surprising tantrums. May ganun pala siyang ugali. He started not talking. Shanae was giving back his phone but he wont get it. He got mad, obviously.
I didn't want to leave Shanae with Franco being mad, but I had to leave, so I left while the rest of the team went out to eat.
WHen I got home, i checked Twitter 'cause I am sure he posted something there about me. Then I saw this tweet and I am sure t'is for me
After seeing this tweet, I tried not to mind it. But late that night, I saw the yet another set of tweets. I am pretty sure that they were talking about me. Kilala ko sila. They like making jokes and putting hidden meaning to tweets like that. We do that eh. Siguro right now, naiinis ako kasi sa'kin nila yon ginagawa ngayon.
Now, I am still not sure if I should go to training. Well, I want to. I want to go to training because I want to gain Mendy's trust, but it'll be awkward knowing that after what happened, I know that they are on their side, because they were not able to hear my side. But I want to train, or maybe, I am just pushing myself. I don't know. But right now, this is what I feel. Again, what "I" feel,
Dejavu
Yuck, narealize ko lang, it was the same time last year when I decided to blog again.
Maybe it was the same time last year when I got so bored and attempted to blog everyday. Pero syempre, hindi ko napanindigan. Nanguna na namana ng katamaran ko. And here I go again, wishing, trying and hopefully not pretending that I will be able to maintain this blog.
Maybe it was the same time last year when I got so bored and attempted to blog everyday. Pero syempre, hindi ko napanindigan. Nanguna na namana ng katamaran ko. And here I go again, wishing, trying and hopefully not pretending that I will be able to maintain this blog.
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